Lie Before You Leave
SasuSaku


I know that it is over, I won’t hide from that fact, but deep down in your heart, I believe that you really cared about me; about us. You taught me how painful solitude could be, I tried to help you, I really did, but you just pushed me away.

“Why? Why won’t you say anything to me? Why do you shut everyone out, Sasuke?”

You pushed everyone away, Sasuke. Every single person that had ever cared about you, you just tossed them aside, like they were nothing, their compassion meant nothing to you.

That night, all I wanted to do was to keep you here, save you from Orochimaru, the loneliness, and more importantly, to save you from yourself. But, once again, I failed, like I always do. You just blocked out everything I said to you, like it was nothing, like it didn’t matter, like what I was telling you wasn’t real, but it was. Everything I said to you was the truth, Sasuke… I loved you, I still love you, and I will always love you.

“I‘m telling you that you meddle too much. Stop bothering me all the time.”

Your words, they hurt me that night. You said I was a nuisance, that I was a bother, that I meddle too much. I guess you were right, but I was only like that because I didn’t want to lose you, Sasuke. You meant everything to me, couldn‘t you at least appreciate that?

“I know about what happened to your clan, Sasuke. But with revenge alone, you will not be able to make anyone happy. No one… neither you… nor me.”

I understand how much it meant for you to get retribution on your clan. It  meant everything to you, like you meant everything to me. I was being truthful, when you do succeed with your vengeances, what will be left for you? Nothing. You will have no home, still, you will not have a family, nor any friends. Are you truly ready to throw all of that away, Sasuke? Your village, your country, your friends, just to gain meaningless revenge?   

“My heart has chosen revenge. I live for that purpose, and that purpose alone.”

Revenge; what a cold, cruel word. Revenge took you away from me, it tore mine and Naruto’s worlds apart. It always took the first place in your heart, I always prayed that I was a close second to it. Though, I knew I wasn’t, you could never stand me. Second in your heart was Itachi; your brother. He was the soul reason you lived so long, he was the one that fueled your hate, he was the one that made you an avenger, he was the one that drove you away from us. Out of your hate for him, you broke all bonds that you held dear, you broke away from us, Sasuke. I hate him… Uchiha Itachi.

“Sasuke, I have my family and friends, but without you, it is the same as being alone.”

You were right, I didn’t have any idea how cold, how abandoned you feel when you are alone, but I do now. Now that you are gone, Sasuke, I can barely find the strength to get up in the morning, to go through my daily routines, knowing that I can’t see your face, or hear your voice. It kills me to see Naruto training so hard just to bring you back, just so that he can keep his promise to me. Sasuke, he put his dream of being Hokage on hold for you, do you appreciate that?

“From this point on, new paths will start.”

You were right, new paths did start, the only thing that I wished for was that all three of us could be on the same one, together, like when we were Team 7. We were happy then. You, me, Naruto, and Kakashi-sensei… we made a great team. I dreamt that we would always be together, like a family. A family that I know you have always wanted, the family you and Naruto never had. You left us and joined Orochimaru, Naruto left and joined Jiraiya, and what did I do with myself, I joined Tsunade. They say history repeats itself, but, I don’t believe that. We are much like are teachers, though… maybe it is true…

“Sasuke, I love you more than anything! I would do anything for you. I beg you! Please, stay here! If that isn‘t possible, then please… take me with you.”

I would give my heart and soul for you, Sasuke. I would go to the ends of this Earth, just to bring you back. You were the one thing constantly on my mind, from the time I woke up, to the time I went to sleep. Even though you are gone, my feelings haven’t changed a bit. You are my only one, Sasuke. This pain that I feel now that we are separated, I hope to God that you feel it too, and I hope you realize how foolish you were to leave, to run out on your friends. You have stolen my heart, Sasuke, and I will forever be waiting for you to return my love.

“After all of this, you’re still annoying.”

Once again, your words dug into me like a sword. In my mind, I thought that you would say that leaving me would be your greatest regret, but you didn’t. What you said didn’t even come close to that. I was still annoying, still a bother, still meddlesome. How could you say that? After all I said to you, I went out on a limb, told you how I felt, and that is what you had to say to me? That is all? Why, Sasuke?  

“Sakura… Thank you.”

That was the last thing you said to me, the last time I got to hear your smooth voice grace my ears. Why were you thanking me? I never did anything for you, and when I tried to, it all fell apart, so why say thank you to me? I should be the one thanking you, Sasuke. Thanks to you, I am a different person. I am stronger now, better than my old self. I will never resort to being that little, frightened pink-haired girl, who always needed someone to protect her. No, I am stronger, better now. I will do whatever it takes to bring you back to me, back to Naruto, and back to Konoha. That is a promise, Sasuke.